Getting Ready, Leaving Joshua, Getting Emma

We had our final conference call yesterday. It is getting very close to the actual travel date which is both exciting - after 2.5 years waiting we are more than ready to meet and hold our little girl - and stressful - we have to pack clothes and toys, a crib, ... for Joshua and then clothes and toys and stuff for Emma, and our clothes ... throw in airline tickets, money, and you have a lot going on, at the same time. Throw in the fact that we will be leaving behind Joshua for 16 days and you have bundles of nerves - quite a few emotions running wild. This past Sunday I actually visualized having to leave Joshua behind. To date I have been able to push it to the side by keeping distracted with all of the other preparations. It wasn't easy as he has become our lives. Then for the first time I visualized us getting Emma and holding Emma and being with Emma. More emotions, more stress, more nerves ... I can't wait to start and I can't wait to end.